BULLSHITS

To be true it have been so long since i got this feelings. feelings that there is a person for me to adore and miss him every time like so fucking much. and what i can do is sit here think about do him think about me and miss me all the time too?

I wish i can return back the time and told him how i truly feels. i bet it's really too late now because we don't even get the chance to talk to each other or we don't fucking know how to start a chat with each other even there's handphone/facebook/msn and what ever shit. I just don't know what his he thinking and what the hell happen towards us. Just fuck it.

And now we are nothing. not even a tiny bit as friend. nothing at all. it suck. and why do i have to feel so heartache sometimes that he is not even mine? I admit i still have feelings. but i have tried to really forget. but something just pull me back to you again..

I still have lot's and lot's of things to tell you and i guess the chances to talk to you are very low or i can't. i still remember what you have promised me. i guess i just have to help you break the promises you have made with me.

Maybe i really need time to just get over you and everything. and please let another person appear in my life which i really need a shoulder and share with him everything at the sea and under a patch of stars.

I don't want to mention it anymore. just a post to crush all my feelings in my blog. and right here. YES I MEAN RIGHT HERE STARTING FROM NOW i'll forget everything like throw all the rubbish inside the big dustbin and don't give a single damn shit about you. make sure you don't crawl back and say you're regret. make sure you don't turn back and think about me.

I SHOULD BE LOVELESS, HEARTLESS, A HEARTBREAK KID.
THAT IS THIS WORLD AND EVERYONE WHO KNOWS ME THE BEST EXPECTATION OF ME.
because i don't need a man to ask me to be strong and stay beside me.

This is the last goodbye for you. I make sure myself will never look back.